OK here I am again. Yes I made it back for another day maybe because I am feeling good today. I have been feeling really bad lately, physically, mentally and most of all emotionally. I guess I should explain, I have no family my mom and father have both passed and my sister is a bitch, and its so sad. I feel like its slowly killing me, so hopefully doing this blog it will help me to see and finally really be able to say "Fuck it" and really mean it, you know what I mean, because my family have done nothing but betray me, use me and now look, where are they?, I mean I could just die and they would not even know about it, and the fight I had with my sister was so big. I'm done. I cant keep trying to make her love me. I did all that I could and now I just have to say fuck it, because I cant keep feeling bad for what?!, right so I have decided that today I am going to do my hair. I am going to try to make the outside match what I am trying to do on the inside. I am 40 and I feel like I'm like 70 sometimes, because I'm always so sick but shit if you you were diabetic and have hypothyroidism and hypertension and rheumatoid arthritis and is always depressed and stressed you would be sick too but I wanna try to change all that. I wanna try to eat healthier and try to start walking more and try to eat properly because I am sick of feeling sick all the time so here goes......
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